This shall pass as well, shaking off anxiety by looking back
I was so anxious about closing that deal. The result was supposed to come in on Monday, but no news.
I recieved the message today(Tuesday) that it has been successfully closed with wonderful reviews of how well I did.
All the anxiousness were quite unnecessary.
A wise friend mentioned how much anxiety reliving it is to look back on past anxieties. This turned out to be quite true. I opened up my diary from 2.5 years ago.
2022-01-28 9:27am
I dreamed about announcing my resignation in Chime Group Chat.(Chime is Amazon's own version of teams/slack you name it) That was horrible! I wanted to say goodbye in a proper way. I imagine a thousand-ways of things going wrong and suffer in those imaginations. However, you already made the decision. Stand up strgiht, get shit done, prepare handover and prepare to say goodbye.
Did any of the awful things I thought of come true? No, not at all.
It turned out pretty well. I like the current work, the past 2 and a half years after leaving amazon has been a blast. Just to name a few of many wonderful things that happened.
- Got married.
- Befreinded wonderful crowd.
- Adventured South East Asia, Turkey, France and Italy.
- Got promoted at my new job.
We only have today and today only.
Spending time in anxiousness is a sorrowful waste.
Looking back on past anxieties that served nothing does help to shake the anxiety off and actually live the day.
